I AM FREAKING THE FREAK OUT!

HOLY CRAP!

Tomorrow marks Day 1 of the Breast Cancer 3-Day. I am SO HAPPY that I made my goal, because I am FREAKING OUT right now. SERIOUSLY.

I woke up at 6:30 this morning, and of the 2.5 hours I have been awake, I think I have spent 1.5 of those hours so close to the verge of tears that I could feel my eyes stinging.

I hope I’ve packed everything. I hope I have everything. I have to stick my air mattress pump in the bag still because I had to exchange it. It was missing the little nozzle thing. I also can’t find my travel toothbrush, which I found by ACCIDENT two days ago but has gone missing again.

I hope I can sleep tonight. I hope I wake up in time to get to the Park & Ride so we can catch our limo (!) to the Cow Palace, where Opening Ceremonies is being held. I hope I survive Day 1 and am able to walk Day 2. I hope I survive Day 2 and am able to walk Day 3. I hope I survive Day 3. I hope I’m drinking enough water. I need to check my blister kit in my pack and make sure I have enough moleskin.

I need to find my Manda hat in case my Koolhaas hat is not finished. I need to make sure my new pink hat is ready to go. I need to check and re-check again.

I need to calm down.

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